Babushka.

Posted on 30 December 2006 at 16:38 by vika. Categories: family.

My grandmother died last night. We’re flying to Lost Angels on Monday. I’m numb, don’t really know how I feel.

It was time – she’d had Alzheimer’s, had stopped recognizing my mother. None of that makes it better.

I had a dream about her last night. It involved … well, first we were sitting around a table with a very earnest Young Pioneer in dress uniform saying Very Earnest Things. Then we (babushka and I) were watching that same person on a webcast, or something. She said something inane, and we both went “That’s bullshit!” in unison. And the video stream blinked out. She then turned to me and said, “Maybe her feelings were hurt.”

The funeral will likely be on the 2nd – the day, in 2001, when my father died. Might as well make a dark day darker, I guess.

December weather.

Posted on at 11:38 by vika. Categories: big wide world, strangeworld.

So far this winter, in New England (southern, but still New England!, with our share of snow storms!), we’ve had about five minutes of what appeared to be small hail. This is as close as we’ve come to having snow. So far.

Now, either this means OMG GLOBAL WARMING WE’RE ALL GONNA DIE, or Nature has some tricks up her sleeve for my [hope, wish, sacrifice to deities of academe] graduation at the end of May.

Meanwhile, a 41-square-mile ice shelf breaks free near the North Pole. Global warming it is!

Soul it up today, y’all.

Posted on 25 December 2006 at 12:52 by vika. Categories: art, people.

James Brown has died. Long live his music!

(Via WorkBook, who also posts a link to “Santa Claus, Go Straight to the Ghetto”.)

Solstice and everything after.

Posted on 24 December 2006 at 21:46 by vika. Categories: big wide world, food, people, quotidian.

We spent Friday-to-Saturday night awake, Ethan and I and Jennafer the Awesome Housemate and friend Dave, celebrating Solstice. There was cribbage and Futurama and coffee with Bailey’s and whiskey and talking and cheese! Omigod the cheese. I’d bought clochette for the first time (not at that site, locally – but isn’t that a nice photo?), and it was all that with bells on. Other cheeses too, St Marcellin and a Portuguese semi-hard goat cheese marinated in olive oil and herbs.

There was so much cheese that, when we had crepes the next morning, I did not want any cheese with my crepes. I’ll wait for the gasps of horrified wonder to subside.

And then we had a really slow and sleepy day, at the end of which some friends from Virginia showed up and we had pumpkin risotto made by yours truly. I love making risotto. If your ingredients are good (and mine included homemade broth, thank you Mr. Chest Freezer), it’s dead easy and deeply satisfying.

Now, I’m taking a headache break while five people finish up dinner – dolmas (oh yes, hand-rolled) and chicken biryani.

To summarize: I LOVE FOODIES.

Happy Light’s return, everybody.

Solstice days!

Posted on 21 December 2006 at 13:20 by vika. Categories: big wide world.

Today and tomorrow are of exactly the same length here in Providence, but not necessarily in other places. !!

So we’ll have two longest nights, and defy tradition and celebrate the newly-lengthening day on Saturday. But it doesn’t matter when you celebrate it. Light is coming back! Light a fire to greet it, and stay warm. Happy fires, everybody.

Study: Psilocybin relieves OCD symptoms

Posted on at 4:18 by vika. Categories: health, news.

TUCSON, Ariz. - A preliminary study of the active ingredient in psychedelic mushrooms has found it is effective in relieving the symptoms of people suffering from severe obsessive compulsive disorder, a University of Arizona psychiatrist reports.

Dr. Francisco A. Moreno led the first FDA-approved clinical study of psilocybin since it was outlawed in 1970. The results of the small-scale study are published in the latest edition of the Journal of Clinical Psychiatry.

Psilocybin is, as you will surely know, the psychoactive ingredient in mushrooms of the Psilocybe genus. The article above is a fun little read, and the Erowid link… well, Erowid may not be a “little” read, but is always fun and educational. :)

(If you follow the second link above and find the information interesting and well presented, won’t you donate to Erowid before the year is out? They are the largest online repository of information on psychoactives from caffeine to smart drugs to heroin; they do some great work, and are supported entirely by [non-governmental!] donations. Definitely a worthy cause to support.)

Morningtime conversation.

Posted on 20 December 2006 at 10:22 by vika. Categories: people.

“Ha! Thank you, Sherlock:

Everybody is doing it,* and has been for quite a while.

That’s the conclusion of a study of trends in premarital intercourse over the past half-century.”

“All right! That’s why we need science. To tell us things we already knew, in ways we can’t deny.”

*Washington Post link. Login required.

Ask the Internets. (Roland!)

Posted on 19 December 2006 at 18:11 by vika. Categories: big wide world, rolandht.

Here’s one for history buffs. If you know anyone interested in this sort of thing, please pass it on: I’d love to know more about The League of Roland.

In 2002 I had the opportunity to visit the Oxford libraries repeatedly, and to dig out Really Obscure Stuff relating to Roland. Right now I’m looking at [part of] Roland: Country First, “published privately by The League of Roland, 45a, High Street, Market Harborough, Leicestershire.” They seem to have been a group of folks dissatisfied with the state of England, and proposing some crackpot ideas as to how to restore the Empire’s former glory.

It couldn’t be more stereotypically British, really. Check out the first paragraph:

This league is founded in loyalty to all existing institutions, by men confident in the health of the British people and their government, to help to fulfil the destiny of the British Empire and all Britons overseas. Its first aim is to support the government in winning the war.

The dedication reads: “To three trusted men – Mr. Winston Churchill – Lord Beaverbrook – Mr. Ernst Bevin – they are excellent.” So that helps date the piece: “the war,” one presumes, is WWII.

My question to you: who are/were these people? Google, Britannica and Wikipedia know nothing about them. Any information at all, including pointers as to where else I might look, would be appreciated. Please don’t suggest I go back to the UK, though: my resources are so scarce and the desire to see those hallowed shores so vast, that a suggestion of this sort would break my heart.

Great, now I’m starting to sound like them. Anyone? Bueller?

[Edit: what I’m looking for is information on The League of Roland, not the Churchill & co.]

Emotional masochism.

Posted on 17 December 2006 at 20:53 by vika. Categories: self, taking it personally.

I was in a relationship some years ago, which ended very, very badly. About half (no more, no less) of the blame for this lies with me.

Every once in a while I’ll go back and read what everyone involved, and not involved, wrote about the break-up. I have no idea why I do it. It’s painful and demoralizing, from two different sides. On one hand, I am still ashamed at how I’d behaved then. On the other, I reel with disbelief at how others behaved – the others who knew me but only heard the other side of the story, and the ones who didn’t know me at all. It’s one thing to support your friend, but I wonder if it ever occurred to any of them that I might be reading their comments, and if it did, whether they gave a damn about the human being who was their target.

Most of this has been resolved for a long time now, both explicitly and implicitly. Even the people I am angriest at, those who didn’t (still don’t) know me, are past. They were knee-jerking, protective of their friend, and also ganging up like children do in the playground. So why do I go back and read things that were written in anger, often by people who’d never met me? Why does this matter?

Most of the time it doesn’t. But I go back to re-read it every once in a while, knowing that it’s neither particularly productive nor good for me. This bothers me.

Hey there, LiveJournal feed readers.

Posted on 16 December 2006 at 22:04 by vika. Categories: tech.

Dear LJ feed readers,

Just as a reminder, since several people have left comments on the feed posts lately: there’s no way for me to get notified of them, and so I might not see yours if you make it on LiveJournal. Besides, your comment will be lost to the buzzing void when the post in question is dropped from the field.

So: if you’d like to make a comment, please to click on the URL that appears right below the title, and above the text, of each post. There, you’ll be able to make your comment – and it’ll be saved for posterity, too!

I’ve had a recurring conversation with LJ readers about whether I’m imposing too much work upon you. As I see it, you just gotta click on the URL instead of the “leave comment” link. The rest of the effort is pretty much identical, except that you have to enter in your name and stuff. So, sorry if you feel put out; but as I’m trying to distance myself from LJ a little,* I’ll be trying to not actively check past feed posts for stray comments.

Love,
-Words’ End

*”Distance,” in this case, means “stop obsessively reloading friends page, that won’t make people write any more or faster.”

Ahhh, December!

Posted on at 18:37 by vika. Categories: health, self.

It is 46 degrees F outside right now. That’s 8C. After sunset, in mid-December. The high to day was 13C (55F). Is this crazy?

Yes, it is, and a good time for a bike ride too. I went out to the East Bay Bike Path, on the other side of the Providence river and then along the bay. It takes a while just to get to the path, maybe forty minutes or so, maybe a bit less. From the ending point on that map, I went roughly 8.5 miiles each way, to Barrington, stopping for coffee and book reading.

20 miles or so, in four hours, including coffee break and strong wind on the way home. Bliss. Hopefully, though, next time I’ll remember to wear the bike shorts.

I’m trying to lose weight, by the way. Not stridently or anything, just by watching for a too-heavy reliance on convenient bread products – balancing them out with proteins, eating more veggies which is just not intuitive for me in the winter, being more conscious of whether I’m hungry or thirsty, as the latter sometimes seems like the former. Oh, and exercising somewhat (not as diligently as I’d like). Lately I’ve noticed a small budge toward the lighter side, but I feel better than I should for losing so little weight. Hopefully this means increased metabolism, and more healthy proportions of nutrients. Just in time to have some hot chocolate with Bailey’s!

Fruvous on YouTube

Posted on 15 December 2006 at 10:03 by vika. Categories: art, big wide world.

Oh man, I do wish they hadn’t gone on permanent hiatus. Moxy Früvous is one of my favorite bands. They’re fun, they’re talented, they put on one hell of a live show.

Früvous started out busking on the streets of Toronto, and quickly gained fame in Canada with their “Independent Cassette” (a demo tape, sorta – you haven’t heard Green Eggs and Ham until you’ve heard them sing it) and their first album “Bargainville.” They got huuuge! And then they released “Wood,” which was very different from “Bargainville,” and many of their fans say, wtf? And Früvous said, bitch, we’re multifaceted!, and went touring in the States. Their fans, of whom I’m one, call themselves Fruheads and have driven ridiculous distances to see them. Yeah, I’m not kidding. This band, and the Fruhead phenomenon, were responsible for my meeting Colleen, who moved up to Boston from Florida in 1997 and never left, and who is one of my dearest friends.

And you can see a bunch of their videos on YouTube! Check out especially “King of Spain” (recorded, as far as I know, at their first busking spot, and easily their most famous song), “Fell in Love” and “Fly” – oh, and “My Baby Loves a Bunch of Authors”! – but there’s a lot of good stuff there. The video quality isn’t that hot, but I suspect the person who posted their actual videos (as opposed to fan videos) digitized them from the VHS tape of videos that they had at one point. I should have a copy of that somewhere… I think…

Nowadays they’re all doing their own thing. Jian Ghomeshi is into TV and producing and politics. The slightly outdated website for Dave Matheson, wizard man who can play ANYTHING including my heart strings, has a link for buying his self-titled solo album, which I highly recommend. Murray Foster has played bass with Great Big Sea, and appears to be playing with Tory Cassis (another Canadian musician I love) in a band called The Lesters. Mike Ford sings about Canada to school kids: here’s a CD of his on Amazon.ca. Oh, and just by the way, he is (his website says) “a contributing editor to McGraw-Hill’s new Secondary School textbook, Defining Canada.”

Ahh, Früvous.

(Edited to add:) Hey, if nothing else, see/hear the Gulf War Song.

Norway: praying to the sun gods

Posted on 14 December 2006 at 11:45 by vika. Categories: big wide world.

Yaaaay Norway!

“The Norwegian solar energy adventure continues, with Renewable Energy Corporation (REC) announcing heavy investment in their facility in Telemark.

“REC said that they would be doubling their production capacity of silicon wafers, needed to manufacture solar cell panels, at their Herøya facility in Telemark County in southern Norway.”

I swoon, and once again want to live in that part of the world.

A-what-a-lypto?

Posted on at 10:55 by vika. Categories: art, politics.

Not that I was ever inclined to go see Mel Gibson’s Apocalypto in the first place, but this Wired blog entry debunks some myths Gibson is trying to perpetuate in this movie with Cold Hard Facts… or history, it’s one of the two. In any case, a reasonably short and very satisfying read.

ETA: ok, I’m reading the many, many comments on that blog entry bashing the author and the review. Somehow, I’m still feeling that sense of satisfaction at Gibson-bashing. He’s been on my $hit-list for a while now. So judge for yourself whether it’s an accurate review, is what I’m saying. :)

Ho-ly cow.

Posted on 12 December 2006 at 20:58 by vika. Categories: big wide world, rolandht.

Behold what I found googling around tonight: the Digby 23 project at Baylor University. From their home and “About” pages:

The Digby 23 Project is an electronic archive devoted to the study of Oxford Bodleian MS Digby 23. This codex contains two works, copied during the twelfth century and assembled at a later date: Plato’s Timaeus in the Latin translation by Calcidius, and the Old French Chanson de Roland.
[…]
Upon completion, the Digby 23 Project will include:

(1) Detailed XML transcriptions of the Latin and Old French texts (including all marginalia and scribal notes)
[…]
(4) A database for the study of the language, themes, and poetics of the Old French Roland: by adopting a compatible format with the Charrette Project, scholars will be able to explore the similarities and differences between eleventh-century epic and twelfth-century romance;
(5) A detailed critical apparatus for the study of the manuscript.

Please, just try to imagine my glee right now. I just sent an email to the project’s general editor, with a Roland-related question and introduction. We’ll see if she responds; but man, the project is just starting out, and they’re doing (semantically encoded, I’m assuming) themes! I’d love to talk to these folks about Roland, and what themes they see fit to encode.

Ohboyohboyohboy. I feel about ten years old now.

Monday morning scare

Posted on 11 December 2006 at 8:43 by vika. Categories: art, strangeworld.

Good morning.

Scary Mary. Hide your children!

MITH puts up podcasts.

Posted on 10 December 2006 at 15:59 by vika. Categories: digital humanities.

The Maryland Institute for Technology in the Humanities, which hosts a series of informal Digital Dialogues, has put up podcasts of the talks that have already taken place this semester. One of them’s my November talk about the Virtual Humanities Lab.

Think-racing out of depession

Posted on 7 December 2006 at 10:03 by vika. Categories: health, strangeworld.

“Depressed? Think faster thoughts, and your mood may improve.”

Hunh! Simple, elegant, worth a try. I guess it’s very similar to “Depressed? Try doing some physical activity.” That works too: people work out, for example, to lift their mood; or clean house like a whirlwind. Still, thinking faster. I’d never thought of that.

Computer killed the Renaissance man?

Posted on at 9:44 by vika. Categories: people, tech.

Just saw this in Wired: “The Last of a Dying Breed.” The caption is, “What is being lost as technology kills off the Renaissance man? Our souls, perhaps?”

The author-commentator Tony Long sings praises of his friend John, who just passed away (RIP).

John was a dabbler, a sort of Renaissance man, if you will. And you just don’t see a whole lot those around anymore, not in this age of narrowly defined interests. He [had driven a cab, was an artist/painter/sculptor/poet, played guitar and piano, scuba dived, swam competitively, travelled a lot, spoke some languages, was married a bunch].

But he never learned how to use a computer. What’s more, he never had any interest in learning. For John, life existed “out there,” not on a screen. He never owned a cell phone, or any phone, for that matter. Didn’t have a TV. Probably never heard of an iPod. But he was one of the most interesting people I’ve ever known.

I think what made John so interesting, beyond the adventures he had and the great stories he loved to tell, was that there was always momentum to his life. He could make a lot out of a little. His days were full and I’ll wager that, after Viagra came along, his nights were pretty busy, too. He personified the active over the passive.

So, Tony Long isn’t anti-technology, and neither was John, if Viagra came into use.

He was a doer, not a watcher. Which is probably the biggest reason John didn’t care about computers. Yes, they’re efficient and good for business, if business is what you care about. But sitting at a computer when you don’t have to is to be cripplingly passive, even if you’re playing the bloodiest, most maniacal shooter game ever. Sorry, podnah, but that doesn’t make you Billy the Kid. You’re just a couch potato with twitchy fingers.

Er, computers have also changed the nature of our social life, our view of the other side of the world as a bit more accessible, and the kind of information we can get in five minutes’ time to help us pursue our hobbies, whether they be scuba diving, model planes or rock climbing. Networked computing makes things like Burning Man and the Skin project much easier, and allows more people to participate. How’s this killing the Renaissance man?

Society hasn’t changed into a buncha couch potatoes, not any more than it already has been (and I’m talking before TVs, too). Those who want to do, do. And perhaps do more now that they have access to a lot more information.

I’m a bit surprised that this is in Wired. They of all people should know better. Computer != first-person-shooter! Not by anyone’s definition, except, it seems, Tony Long’s.

If wishes were fishes [geekery]

Posted on 6 December 2006 at 12:09 by vika. Categories: tech.

You know what I’d like? I’d like a piece of OS X software that will pull a black veil over, black out, everything on my screen that’s not the window (of whatever software) I’m looking at. No cluttered desktop, no other windows, nothing. Like WriteRoom but letting me use, say, TextEdit.

And while we’re at it, I’d love the use of a Mac that can run Classic and has it installed.* For a full day, if possible. Anyone reasonably local (Boston-Providence) have access to such and a kind heart? :)

*I’d thought it stopped shipping with OS 10.4, but mindlace says it’s 10.3. So pre-10.3, I guess?